me: do you miss mummy?
darren: ya
me: i thought you wouldnt feel anything, for that time you were still very young.
darren: i still rmb when we were on the way to the hospital, and how she look like.
and there were many reporters on that day at the hospital. the newspaper article.
me: sigh, no matter how much we miss her, we can never never have her back.

mummy,can you talk to me through dream? or even appear infront of me?
someone actually dreamt of you telling her that you want to bring me along with you.
why am i still here? i want to see you so badly.
)=

others have mother to go shopping with them but not me.
mother to nag at them when they are home late.
mother to talk to, for almost everything.
its worst for my brothers who lost her at a younger age.

am lucky to have my dad and brothers with me.

mummy, this song is dedicated to you.
your fav. song.

I am sailing, I am sailing,
home again 'cross the sea.
I am sailing, stormy waters,
to be near you, to be free.

I am flying, I am flying,
like a bird 'cross the sky.
I am flying, passing high clouds,
to be with you, to be free.

Can you hear me, can you hear me
thro' the dark night, far away,
I am dying, forever trying,
to be with you, who can say.

Can you hear me, can you hear me,
thro' the dark night far away.
I am dying, forever trying,
to be with you, who can say.

We are sailing, we are sailing,
home again 'cross the sea.
We are sailing stormy waters,
to be near you, to be free.

Oh Lord, to be near you, to be free.
Oh Lord, to be near you, to be free,
Oh Lord.